“Carrying our cross”

carry your cross

Dear Friends,

Believing is not as easy as it first sounds. We believe when we know something to be true, and this knowledge then impacts the way we do things.

Believing happens when we do stuff. When I risk floating on the water, I begin to know what it means to trust. And so I believe in the possibility of not sinking when in the water. Because I believe, I can enter the ocean and launch myself into the waters.

Jesus invites us to ‘believe the good news of the gospel’. Yet we can only believe when we know it is true, and we only know it is true when we have risked a little in ‘doing’ it. So how can we ‘do’ the good news of Jesus… because if we don’t ‘do’, our belief will only be academic, in our heads, and this is no good to anyone!

‘Doing’ the good news of Jesus is what Jesus means by ‘carrying our cross’. Carrying a cross is a very physical, tangible action. It is a million miles from simply reading a book and assenting to some ‘idea’ or ‘concept’. Carrying requires an action… an action which we will experience. When Jesus states it is the cross we must carry, He is directing our attention to the giving of himself on the Calvary cross. An action of self-giving love – not a nice ‘idea’ but a real, definitive action. At Calvary Jesus is not in control, He has forfeited any sense of directing operations – He has placed himself in the hands of the Roman governor Pilate, and the religious hierarchies. This is a concrete action by Jesus.

So, Jesus calls us, each one of us, to follow his example and ‘carry our cross’ – don’t be afraid of placing yourself in others control… and do it in love. This is a self giving love. As we act in this way we ‘do’ the good news of Jesus. As we ‘do’ the good news we experience the blessing this brings – it makes us feel good. Too many times we interpret this feeling good as something we should not admit to – so we try to put it to one side with the resulting impact that we don’t risk this self giving love… we become tired and weary… and we only end up doing it in our heads – which is no good to anyone!

Yet as we ‘do’ the actions of self-giving – making a cup of tea for a loved one, making a phone call or sending a text to check a friend is ok, smiling at a stranger, letting a fellow car driver join the queue of traffic ahead of us – these actions of self –giving – not looking for any reward or pat on the back are the gateway into believing. The impact of these actions provide us with ‘knowledge’ – self-giving brings a blessing of spirit – and this knowledge leads directly into believing in the ‘way’ Jesus has instructed us in.

And as we believe in this way, our hearts are changed, are made more expansive and we begin to uncover a new ‘me’ – a ‘me’ which lays to one side the compulsive weariness of our inability to believe what is really important, a ‘me’ which stands blessed in a love which knows no end. A ‘me’ which could even be described as a ‘new creation’.

So, asking ourselves each day – when have I ‘done’ some self-giving actions… when have I chosen to ‘deny myself’ and ‘bless the other…’ becomes a really important thing to do. In these simple and profound actions ‘believing’ becomes something ingrained into our psyche.

God gives of Himself to us each day –over and over again. In the heart of the Trinity (Father, Son and Holy Spirit) there is an amazing, voracious belief in the power of love. This is not an idea or nice sounding concept – it is something God ‘does’ in every moment.

‘Believers’ are not only people who sit in pews or sing hymns, but  those who ‘carry the cross’ with a joy and effervescence because they know this is the only way… the way to ‘believe in the good news of Jesus Christ’.